Note: I didn’t have time to go where I wanted to go with this, but here are all of the photos I had in mind…
Man… The only thing I’ve been able to think about since yesterday morning is how (pre-AI American?) capitalism is cooked. The reason I’m saying this is because of two discussions I’ve had with first ChatGPT and then Gemini about managing bipolar disorder. The ChatGPT chat was a long time ago, but through it I discovered interpersonal social rhythm therapy (IPSSRT). The basic premise is exactly what I’ve been doing with my Way of the 108 system and a quote I came up with on my own “Lifestyle is the only medicine”.
With IPSRT you basically get a good routine, maximize the quality of sleep (through good routines), and make the people around you aware of what you’re doing so they can help support you. I’ve been bipolar for 25+ years… How am I just learning about this now?! It might just sound like “common sense” but 1, common sense ain’t all that common, and 2, it’s backed by science. The being backed by science would have made my wars perk up dramatically.
The second conversation, with Gemini, happened yesterday. My sleep has dropped from 9+ hours to 7-8 hours, something that’s concerning my wife. I’ve been making the argument that everything is fine because hours of sleep isn’t the only, or maybe even best, data point for sleep. One thing I want to add to the data is getting a band that’s primarily design for sleep tracking. Anyhow, I also ran a deep research query to see what else I could learn about sleep in connection to bipolar 1.
I learned a lot about sleep, and 7-8 hours is an OK range BUT, like with the quality of those 7-8 hours, there are A LOT of other things I should track… Here we go!
Sleep Quality, Energy Level, Wired Feeling, Mood Instability, Irritability, Anxiety, Racing Thoughts, Speed of Thoughts, Distractibility, Optimism, Self-Esteem, Urge for New Projects, Urge to Socialize, Speech Speed, Talkativeness, Libido, Took Daytime Nap, Impulsive Spending, Other Impulsive Acts, Took Meds as Prescribed, Drank Alcohol, Exercised, Hours of Sleep, Time to Fall Asleep (Mins), Night Awakenings (Count), Caffeine Drinks (Count), Time on Restful Activities (Hours), Time on Projects (Hours), Time Socializing (Hours)
Some of these are answered as a range, some as yes or no. Gemini gave me a detailed reason for each one as well. I’ll be adding pretty much all of these to my custom tracker and logging them at the end of the day (and eventually getting that tracking band!)
OK… What about this made me think “capitalism is cooked” (I have many other reasons to think that… 😂) I’ve been bipolar for 25+ years. I’ve seen doctors and been hospitalized in two different countries. No one has told me any of this EVER!
Also, the app I use? Created by a guy with, I’m guessing, bipolar who wanted it for himself but then made it available to everyone for free (while collecting donations). RIP (just he passed away a couple years ago from his site).
Bipolar is a SERIOUS problem that costs governments, communities, families, and individuals a LOT of money but… You know where all of the money for address this issue goes (wait… gonna fact check myself…) hear, this will do:
“Bipolar disorder has an annual U.S. economic burden of over $195 billion, with 70-80% stemming from indirect costs like lost productivity. The main direct costs, making up the remaining 20-25%, are typically inpatient hospitalization, medication, and outpatient visits.” – Gemini
I was going to say it goes to pharmaceutical companies, and a lot does, a lot goes to hospitals… Anyhow, a lot of people make a lot of money on this issue and it’s taken me 25 years to find out IPSRT and the app I use isn’t really designed to support IPSRT. I’m hacking all of this shit together and… Why hasn’t capitalism done this for me yet? Capitalism has spent EASILY hundreds of thousands of dollars on me (easily). If someone gave me $100,000 right now I would EASILY save capitalism $1,000,000. Capitalism doesn’t want my solution. There are more profitable and more scaleable solutions that will make more money (even though it’s costing the US hundreds of billions of dollars, deaths, pain sorrow…) Like… Capitalism will happily shoot itself in the foot for the right price.
I guess a reason I’m saying capitalism is cooked is my solution is, at the end of the day, anti-capitalist (the colonizer version of capitalism any way). I plan on making a lot of money, but I want to create an anit (white supremacist colonialist) capitalist virus and, everyone can see the writing on the wall. Gen Z is feeling it, you see it coming with AI… There are going to be a lot of hosts for this virus.
Capitalism is cooked cuz I (and many other) been cooking! 👨🏾🍳👨🏾🍳👨🏾🍳😂
Anyhow… The djembe got dusted off! I met up with my drum teacher yesterday. We banged on drums. And I decided I’m going to help him get the weekly drum club poppin’. I had to teach him how a club gets started. Some HAS to be there EVERY WEEK and ON TIME. I’ve build many weekly clubs, and this is the secret sauce. You gotta be there EVERY WEEK by yourself, twiddling your thumbs, for a long time (sometimes). Why? People need to know that if the show up someone will be there. I think the tipping point for when you don’t need to show up every week is around 12 to 18, but that really depends on what kind of group it is. The number cound be significantly smaller or bigger. Anyhow, eventually a critical mass is hit where there’s always at least 3 to 5 people there. No one needs to check the Facebook or WhatsApp group. Everyone knows that every Sunday at 2 pm at Da’an Park, Casey and Imago will be there drumming. I even donated my drum to the cause for now. I was only going to show up once a month (because of the trek) and practice at home but… Show up to what?! I gotta make the what that I want to show up to!
Man… It’s 9 pm and I’m still working on this… 😂
Ha… Going back to the mental health part, the time I would have spent writing this I spent helping someone who needed some help in the mental health depart. Introduced them to my doc. Hung out with them after the fact. People with menth health needs need more of THAT. What’s the capitalist solution to that?! What’s the app to build?! HOW DO WE MONETIZE?! HOW DO WE SCALE?! WHAT’S THE MVP?! HOW DO WE FIND INVESTORS?! DO WE FORM IN TAIWAN OR DELEWARE?! 🤑🤑🤑
Damn son… Finally making it to the bit I wanted to write about but I’m writing in the order that things happened… Actually… Seems like it was meant to work out this way now that I’m thinking about it. I took two photos in the house I’m going to add to the collections… Oh shit! That photo I want to find! I mean… I downloaded it already but I was reading the post! The post was good! Magda called and by the time I went back to the Facebook it was gone. 😭 Actually… I’ll save the content of that post for tomorrow…
This morning while streaming two things happened. The first was someone talking about how they had a MilTownKlan shirt (shout out to Owen). That’s rare! I printed (silk screened) 25 them at Brew City Brand. They even did it for me for free! Actually… I might have a video…
I knew I had a video:
The second thing that happened was someone asking if I could help them but a PS5 so they can buy Death Stranding with it comes out. I said I couldn’t give them money, but I could give the ideas. Then, off stream, I remembered that I was going to make the MilTownKlan logo public domain so I didn’t have to sell shirts. People could just print them however they wanted to print them. They could make hats and stickers and posters and coasters and… Whatever they want! (Suck my nuts capitalism! 🔩😂)
THEN I remember that I had written a whole document about how to fo about doing that THEN I was like “Oh shit! I can make a MilTownKlan CustomGPT that explains all this shit!” (I’m making a CustomGPT for initiation into The 108, the new MilTownKlan, but… Later…)
Anyhow, that put miltownkid (ZEE) on my mind today. Then “I” (more on that in a moment) remembered how it was miltownkid ZEE who created Casey Abbott Payne (yes, that’s been my government name since forever, but I’ve spent far more of my adulthood being mtkZ than CAP). Then “I” (I use to associate “I” with whoever I was before I created miltownkid but… It’s so long ago I honestly don’t remember much about him other than wanting to move to China to be a hermit) remembered how I made mtk this experiment I was going to do during an emerging social internet (I got FRANKENSTEINED! 😂)
So I’m walking and thinking like… Yeah. miltownkid ZEE (me!) is a pretty cool guy. Like… I’m obvious him and this Casey Abbott Payne character (the Casey Abbott Payne character was suppose to stabilize… ME! 😂)
Had to go find one more photo to make my last photo make sense. So… Casey Abbott Payne started out as this Chan Buddhist Shaolin character and miltownkid ZEE was this 400 year old Daoist Wizard character and they were like… Doing battle! It was Casey’s job to contain him… Casey was like… Xuanzang and miltownkid ZEE was the Monkey King and… It’s a long story. It was Casey’s job to… Contain(?) him.
I have this photo of Casey and miltownkid together from back in the day. Casey’s all in black. miltownkid is the Phoenix (maybe he’s been trying to set miltownkid free but like… Into the spirit realm. This realm can’t handle him… 😂)
Anyhow, I’m thinking about all of that and I get home to hang up my backpack and BOOM there’s miltownkid! (I almost got rid of that hat) and… BOOM. Backpack covers him up and miltownkid is just chilling. 😂
Fuck it! I’m gonna go find that photo (well, the post it’s from). It seems relevant for the end here!
Man… The universe is really fighting me to get this done… I have all of these pictures… Imma end with the Marcus Garvey quote I ran into on “Kids See Ghosts”.
May I say something to you to give you a true knowledge of yourself and life?
“Man in the full knowledge of himself is a superb and supreme creature of creation
When man becomes possessor of the knowledge of himself, he becomes the master of his environment”
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