I had crazy “dreams” last night… If I can call them that. I’ve noticed that, when going to sleep, I go into a deep dreaming mode. Just visualizing the future. I feels real to me. Like a part of me is in the future guiding another part of me in the present.

Last night something else happened. It felt like some kind of bridge between two… Spiritual worlds? I was that bridge. All this is happening with “Ritual: Power, Healing and Community : The African Teachings of the Dagara” sitting next to me. It was eventually too much so I got up and sat on the meditation cushion in my room.

“The Wu-Tang Manual” by RZA was sitting next to me so I decided to read it. I’ve never really read it. I mostly flipped through it. It gives a surface level introduction to the members of the Wu-Tang Clan along with a collection of their history and philosophical influences. I’ve been following Wu-Tang pretty closely for a long time so I knew a lot of it, but definitely not all of it.

Then I got to the chapter on capitalism. It hit me like a brick truck. I’ve actually seen this chapter before from flipping through the book, but I’ve never seen this chapter after reading “Decolonizing Wealth” and thinking about money as medicine. I was raised anti-capitalist and have remained largely anti-capitalist (while still trying to navigate capitalism). Trying to navigate capitalism while being anti-capitalist hasn’t worked out very well for me but seeing this chapter sparked something in me.

The Wu-Tang Clan couldn’t be The Wu-Tang Clan without RZA taking capitalism very seriously. He had intent, a vision, a plan, and acted on it and capitalism played an EXTREMELY important role in realizing all of their dreams. Capitalism will also have to play a pivotal role in realizing my dreams.

Thinking about decolonization. What does decolonized capitalism look like? I’m sure some would argue that this isn’t possible but, where I’m at now, guided by spirits, I would say that’s true for most people. Operating inside capitalist systems feeds the colonizer virus in us all. The difference for me is that I’ll be participating with great awareness and will do everything I can do to stay grounded. To stay black. 🖤

I’ve been telling people that I’m probably better positioned to start monetizing things I’m doing but I’m going to wait but… After intervention from the spirits… Wait for what? To be more ready? I’m ready. I’ve been planting seeds for a long time. It’s time to grow them. Perhaps what I’ve learned from the past is that you can’t speed up the process of nature. In the machine, colonial, land owning world you can but… I suppose colonial growth isn’t real growth. It’s smoke and mirrors. It’s not designed to make the lives of humans better regardless of how loudly colonizers will scream from the rooftops about all boats rising.

Anyhow… That’s a pretty good ramble. I just spent today resting. I woke up feeling like I was in an MMA fight last night. I’m blaming it on getting put through the wringer by the spirits.

Ran into this quote while flipping through the book one final time:

That’s one of the core ideas to the “kid” in miltownkid.