I didn’t finish listening to “Essentialism” during the reflection period this time, but I’m going to keep going through it. In chapter 10, titled “Clarity: One Decision That Makes A Thousand”, Greg talks about “Essential Intent”. In a blog post tied to that chapter he calls it “strategic intent”.
I figured I should come up with an “essential intent” for my 108. I suppose I did something similar in my last plan but I called it a “primary focus”.
What I came up with for this cycle is…
“Fully expose, thoughtfully consider, and canonize my Self.”
Back in the fall of 2018 I had a intense manic episode. A friend beautifully captured the spirit of that episode in this photo. There’s a lot of reflecting I need to do. About that episode, about miltownkid, and about Casey Abbott Payne. I started this process last year in a blog post titled “Cults to Culture to a Cultivated Self”. I ended that post with…
I no longer want to place a filter between my values, principles, and beliefs, and what I present to the world. That just makes things more complicated for me… and for the world! I’m not 100% sure how this unfiltered self will manifest, but there has been a long trail of breadcrumbs left by both miltownkid and Casey Abbott Payne. I’ll be following them to see where they take me.
The way I want to go about exposing, considering, and canonizing is through creation of some documents I’ve had in mind for a long time.
Documents to Create this Cycle
Extended About Me – I’m not sure how extended this “About Me” will be but I want to do a deeper dive into my history, experiences that shaped me, my beliefs about politics, religion, etc. and whatever else comes to mind. I’ll just write and organize the writing and see what happens.
Values and Principles – I’d like to write down my personal values and principles.
Dream – My vision for the future.
Lifeflow – My daily protocols, routines, and habits.
I’ll be building these documents from scratch, but I’ll be looking for books, articles, websites, videos, etc. along the way to provide insight and guidance. Something I’ve found interesting is that I haven’t been able to find a book or guide that has looked appealing to me. I’ll do my best to keep track of the steps I take in the creation of these documents so I can provide a roadmap to anyone else who may find themselves where I find myself now.
New Principles to Try Out/Think About
Bronnie Ware’s post about her book “Regrets of the Dying” lists the top five themes she noticed among the many people she helped transition. Two of them stuck out.
- I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
- I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.
If I turned these into principles I think they’d be:
- Be true to my Self
- Express my feelings
Why It’s Taken so Long to Post This
I’m finally posting this on day 24 of 108. I suppose this is the first time I’m reflecting on the reflection period! Something I did wrong during this past reflection period was never setting aside a solid amount of time to reflect (I think 3 days is the minimum). It usually happens naturally, but I was really busy this past reflection period.
Something else that happened during the reflection period was starting a serious conversation with my wife which has been emotionally draining but also highly beneficial for the both of us. It has been really intense almost daily for more than a month now, but it has finally calmed down (hence I’m posting this now). I brought the conversation up during the reflection period because I was worried about it derailing my 108 if I did it in the middle. Looking back on it now, this was the correct move. I actually ended up totally changing and rewriting my plan because of it.
Flowing to My Dream
Something happened during the last cycle that I should write about more extensively, but I’ll comment on briefly here. When I shifted from working on Being Bipolar to Flow to Your Dream I started spending more time reflecting. Right in the middle of that reflecting a good friend of mine passed away. This triggered me to kick my reflecting into overdrive. I was originally going to focus on building Flow to Your Dream as a business this cycle, but I don’t think I can do that in good faith until I’ve done a more critical analysis of my Self. I’m certain my Self reflection process will be something I’ll spend a lifetime doing, but I believe I can make some great gains by going deep right now.
What I want by the end of this 108 is a solid foundation for the proposed documents. When I finish working on those I want to work on the frameworks for creating and running a 108-day cycle as an individual or as a group.
Any updates/changes I make to this plan will be posted as comments below.